HoolsFeb 9, 20203 minWhat is Joy Even?I don't own emotion. It escapes me. I had a conversation with my therapist about how when I recall events my general overall average feel...
HoolsJan 31, 20203 minOxygen Level 2.4%I'm suffocating. It's starting. The warmth starts rising from your chest into your head and you can't breathe. You're fine. You're fine. ...
HoolsDec 23, 20195 minConversations with me as I try to dateDating isn't easy. I avoided it for almost 27 years. It was a nice 27 years of living in isolation, and avoidance did me well. Though now...
HoolsDec 7, 20193 minThe sound of the thoughts are suffocatingIsn't it so funny how keenly aware most poly people are. That's mostly a generalization based on my own experience though. Perhaps it's ...
HoolsNov 18, 20194 minDead batteryThis photo has no relation to me other than the exact feeling right now. It's two o'clock in the morning. Your name comes up in a convers...
HoolsNov 17, 20193 minModerating Messages my Brain Sends MeI'm overwhelmed with the thoughts in my head. I've been off social media for a day because it's so suffocating. Keeping up the facade I'm...
HoolsOct 17, 20195 minI need a resetI feel so very empty. I've spent my life filling everyone else's buckets and I don't even think I'm doing a good job of it. I feel like e...
HoolsOct 13, 20194 minI don't know who I am even.Just so you know where my head's at. I wrote a blog after a panic attack, half hour before I had to go in for work. It made no sense, so ...
HoolsOct 2, 20195 minHello, Hi, Please Give Me Attention Or I'll Break. Thanks.I've spent way too long being single that I really don't know how to be in a relationship. Not to mention dating multiple people. I think...
HoolsSep 28, 20195 minDid Ya Miss Me?It starts to speak. I can hear it faint, and I know it's there. Yet I am craving that release. I realized a new trigger for me is being a...
HoolsSep 23, 20194 minA Little Bit of Word VomitI feel it coming, I mean I know it's coming, right, because it always does. But what if I'm okay now? What if this time it doesn't come.....
HoolsSep 11, 20196 minWhat Goes Up, Must Come Down, and Vise VersaI'm sitting in a cafe with all the loud noises screaming into my ear drums. For some reason they're playing some loud hip rap music. I th...
HoolsSep 2, 20195 minStupid Piece of ShitI feel so good about being poly it's almost as if I spent 27 years believing that it didn't exist, and now all my ideas of a relationship...
HoolsAug 12, 20195 minLate Night, Last Post, Post Anxiety Attack, Brain ThoughtsI hate how I hate myself. I don't think I deserve it. I don't deserve this hate. I don't deserve to feel it towards myself or on myself. ...